Two weeks of planning.
Two weeks of envisioning. Yet, some things in life require us to let go.
Holding on is the comfort of understanding—the reasoning and meaning of clarity, or so I thought.
I found myself at the front of my realm of creation, setting up and planning to curate another story.
As the architect of that process, something was calling me to go deeper. The voice challenged me to let go of what I knew as comfort. Yet, I found myself standing on the edge of letting go and embracing the art of transformation.
One Season
I remember when I was at the start of my journey of showing up on camera, doing a 30-Day On-Camera Challenge, which I knew was the process and transformation I had to undergo to become the version of myself I am today.
I remember how shy and timid I was, trying to think of what I was going to say and showing up in a space where, with video, there are no do-overs. It was a raw experience.
I can say those moments were some of the most humbling, yet rewarding, times. I was committed to the process, yet I was afraid of letting go and allowing the transformation to take place.
I practiced for days, weeks, and months, just to feel like I was getting anywhere. My lines were too perfect, and most of the time I was using a script—not as a cheat code, but to gain clarity and confidence in myself on camera.
It was a painstaking process of recording and re-recording what felt like a hundred takes. But in that process, I was learning the art of letting go.
Letting Go
Letting go is not simply easy, especially when you’ve formed a mindset or routine that keeps you from evolving.
For me, I think it’s because we become used to a certain understanding, and that familiarity keeps us safe from what we do not know or understand.
But letting go challenges us to believe in something we cannot yet see, whether physically or spiritually. It’s almost like taking tiny steps, one after another, without being in control of how the transformation takes place.
There I was, curating another video, and I wanted to go deeper, breaking the limiting belief that I didn’t have what it took to be on camera confidently and speak from my personal, real experiences.
I felt like I was qualified to do so, especially through my photography journey and the stories I’ve experienced. I still feel I have a long way to go, but through letting go, I realized I am more than just a voice behind a camera.
I would always envision my style and how I wanted my videos to feel—interactive and irresistible—but discovering my process was a process in itself.
So I began to trust more and step out, trying to let go of what I knew so I could become more of who I am.
That eventually led me to the art of my own transformation.
The Art of Transformation
One day, it just clicked.
I couldn’t describe the feeling, but it’s like learning to ride a bike. At first, you have the training wheels on. You don’t have to worry about balancing; you’re simply learning the concept of riding and pedaling.
Then, as your confidence grows, your fear lessens. You stop thinking so much about falling off the bike.
That’s the same power the art of transformation has.
It doesn’t come overnight, but you’ll notice that once you let go of fear and the understanding that got you to this point, something begins to change.
Well, at least for me, it did.
It’s like I surrendered what I thought I knew about being on video and started embracing myself fully. If I messed up a line, I would pause, collect myself, and start again.
I was no longer looking at my camera as an outsider or some unknown object. Instead, I began embracing it as something familiar.
The transformation wasn’t easy, but I can proudly say I did it.
Reflection
Letting go and the art of transformation are all about trusting yourself and whatever process you’re going through—and within.
It will be messy at first. Allow it to be.
There will be moments of humble beginnings. Allow them to be.
Looking back, I am so glad I started that 30-Day On-Camera Challenge because now, whether I’m creating visual assets or simply showing up with no theme at all, I can experience and see the art of that transformation.
Even beyond the camera, the work I’ve been doing has been working on me.
Challenging me.
Confronting me.
When I look in the mirror, I see the man I am becoming and the man I desire to be.
I simply had to learn how to let go and allow the art of transformation to be.
